Dear Reader, As I awaited the release of my book, several emotions occurred. First, I always said I would wait and celebrate when my book was here and I was holding it. As I approached the finish line of production, I would get excited at what a huge accomplishment it was to write and publish a book. Every time tears would swell up, I would say.. no-not yet, wait until you are holding the book.  While I waited for my preorder shipment to arrive the narcissistic abuse set in. I would have to endure the whole same oh-same oh, that didn't happen scenario, she's lying, the usual abuse lingo that's used. So I went into defense and decided to make a website dedicated to "The Truth" because really the reader doesn't know me and what I stand for or my moral character. It would be once again my word against the narcissist and her flying monkeys. I had every page ready for all to see. The will and all the documents. 

The day came and my book arrived. I opened the box....I held the book...there were no tears. But why? The moment I had been waiting for ever sense the Lord guided me to write the first word, I had no tears. Was it because I felt entirely alone? My husband wanted no part of it, because of course, lets protect the narcissist. I was all alone in my celebration. Maybe I thought I would feel less damaged by her actions and words if I released it. But I knew, I was already conditioned to the abuse for 25 years now. My entire being was reverting to its prior self and preparing for the attacks to come.  It is unexplainable how a narcissistic can rewire every part of you, without you even being aware of it happening. I had to stop and remind myself, who I was- The daughter of the most high God, I did what he told me to do- I wrote the book- to bring healing to his people, who are being damaged by these evil individuals and causing havoc in their lives. Guiding them back to Him and His kingdom. So NO, evil was not going to take this moment from me and use it for sadness. I will not fear, The Lord says, he will protect who follow him and that is me. 

I was driving home one afternoon listening to Joel Osteen and he said this "God is looking for your Obedience, You have been chosen, You have stepped into your calling" at that moment I started praying, just telling the Lord that I can not do this again, the whole that didn't happen fantasy. If I didn't have the documents, who would the readers believe? ( the Lord talks to me all the time. So, I am always ready for a response.)  He said... The truth is between me and her.     
   He was correct, he always is. I knew having the will as proof didn't make a difference.

If a family member wants to see the Will or any other documentation, just contact me. Its no problem- The truth is the Light!